The tattoos themselves are my initials on my right wrist and a conglomerate of initials on my left. JRDW are the collective initials of my brother(Justin Douglas Williams), father(Ronald Dale Williams), uncle(James Douglas Williams Jr.) and grandfather(James Douglas Williams Sr.). I felt such a draw to this concept because even though they are people and people make mistakes, if it wasn't for these people and their mistakes and their lives I would not be the person I am now. I am but just the person they helped shape.
You have to understand that the observationalist that I am notices how their lives have all had their positives and negatives. This being said I do not want to make the same negatives that they did. I want to experience my own pitfalls.
My grandfather was by extension the greatest man on this Earth to me. He was a farm boy from Columbia, TN who served in the Navy during Korea and he worked his ass to the bone until the last years of his life. He did all this because he worshiped my grandmother. The ground with which she walked was blessed to him. He had the most intense capacity of love by any male I have ever seen. He sadly passed away in 2010 and left behind his wife and family to only observe that he was what kept the family close together. Once he was gone my grandmother took it upon herself to slander his name and drive herself in selfish pitty from others. As well, the family started to divide and move to new areas to explore options and life abroad. [I want the capacity of love but not the ungrateful love of my life.]
My uncle is the groundfloor representation of my brother. In his youth he was very "cool" and into the new and best sorts of things. He was trained to DJ on the radio and he loved cars. He has two very unique and vastly intelligent sons, as well as a prude of a wife. Within this marriage, he has lost all sense of who he is and he has lost his two sons to their need for distance from such a family household. [I want the cool but not the sad falling action.]
My father is the most incredible man that I can honestly say that for. He has always said that his father was much more incredible than he, but I have just a hard time believing that, although I do love and miss my grandfather. My father provides for his family in any way he can. He helps friends out in their time of need. He has limitless talent in art, carpentry, auto-mechanics, and his envisions. My dad is the model of a true man. I do have to say though that my father has not secured friends like he did in his younger years, however that may be due more to family. [I want the reputation, but with more friends.]
My brother.. My brother is a sad fellow. My brother has laid the path for me in school to make even the hardest hurtle seem like a cakewalk. He made the mistakes before me. He recently married a girl he met while in college who promises him one of the roughest lives he could ever have. In no way does that honestly seem like a good deal, but he made it so he has to live with it. He has great intonation in his decision making skills and his rational thinking. [I want the imagination, but nothing else.]
As I continue to watch these men, I am aware that I want the superhero qualities to these people. The only problem is I don't want to be a superhero; I just want to be me. I want to be the best that I can be. I just don't want to be another..
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